i really don't know if that will help

i exist again! the dead shall rise from piles of mushy gooey proplasm. wife is currently singing things, very peculiar. can't take my eyes off you, so i hope i don't make any spelling errors. gooday mateys!!!!

you must move on, or i will bury you

yes, it really is 3am.
NO, I am not asleep. I am currently awake, listening to japanese pop music drinking HighLife. Yes, I lead a very pathetic existance.
NO, I do not enjoy rubarb pie.
yES, I miss her. I cannot believe that I would miss someone that much when I know I shouldn't.
no, I cannot believe there is someone to even miss. I had actually planned on being lonely here by not creating any connections with anyone.
NO, I don't want to leave this place. I like it here... someone has brainwashed me or there is something in the water.
YES, Robert DeNiro is a badass!
no, I am not drunk, i have only had 1 beer, only because it was either that or water, and i think there are narcotics in the water that make people enjoy this place.
possibly, I am head-over-heals... geeze, i should know better than this
NO, it has nothing to do with sex or sexual attraction, I genuinely enjoy being around this girl for no reason *make note: figure this out*
no, I do not know why I don't sleep.
guilty admission, I do sleep... but only when I am with her, I feel safe when i am with her?
no, I had no intention of writing anything about her in here, why does she keep coming up? am i obsessed with her?
no, I do not have a job... i need to get one, am i willing to work at the sub place on the corner?
YES!!! I am just as sick of all these damn questions too
yes, you should say something if you can answer some of them
no, regretfully i don't think any of them will be answered by anyone, I am not entirely sure anyone knows of this place, do you know of this place?
YEs, I am done rambling for the night, time to go lay down, time to go try to dream of rubber duckies, the Duffster, and that girl... (wow she showed up a lot regardless how much i didn't want to mention her)
NO, I have not used the backspace key, that is why there are so many crazy capitalization errors.
No, I have no intention of going back and correcting them
Yes, my song is on, it is time to try to sleep Tracy Chapman-Fast Car
yes, i still think of that friend warmly every time i hear that song, I miss them more they know or anyone else knows, I miss that friend and love that friend
yes, I hope that friend knows this
no... I don't think they really do, or i wouldn't miss them because that friend would still be around
no, I am not strong enough to tell them or anyone else how much they mean to me, its my curse
yes, I agree, this is too long and not even i would read it if i randomly came across it
yes, this is the final line for this entry, goodbye

was born a rambling man

have you ever wondered what its like to cut a toe off?? well it hurts, more than you can imagine. the only problem is, what do you do with it after its off. if anyone has a clue what to do with a severed toe let me know, i'm open to suggestions here.

Way to Blue

was going to write in the old open diary, but this place seems like its even more barren than that place. so close to seeing all of his thought and idea and no one knows they are here!! bwahahahaha, now thats true power! just in case we won't get too person... eyes are everywhere. does talking to people who aren't there make you crazy? and if so how can one prevent this from happening? i think i have like whole conversations and then ask cale a question about it and he has no idea what i am talking about because the whole thing was in my head, it gets kinda neat sometimes. maybe i'm turning into that man from a beautiful mind, so i think the next step is to win a nobel prize. i think thats enough for this month, i've already told tooooooooo much... sneaky spies!!

sleep??

oh man... NEVER! the cycle continues and its back to only needing 3 hours of sleep to function, i actually miss the days of 8+ now. the only problem is that i am up and NO ONE ELSE IS!! WTF... n00bs! and WTF is with all the 1337 speak. oh well, i wrote so either post a comment or you are a true n00b! no calls back times infinity!!

dun dun dun!?

ahhhhhhhh... it exists!!!!! bwahahaha